final week

This weekend I go back to work. It is my FINAL week of maternity leave. I started thinking, I can't remember my locker combination... I wonder what my sign on name is for the computer system.... will I be on the same floor.... do I remember what all needs done... how many new residents are there.... will I have enough time to pump.... I need to just step back, take a deep breath, and pray. God will help me get through this. But I do need to remember my locker combination so i can put all my stuff in there. I remember my last day thinking, I should write this down so I don't forget it... and what do i do, I forgot to write it down! I'm praying it'll come back to me when I see the lock.

I'm excited to see how Jonathan and Nathan do with their first weekend together. I hope Nathan enjoys it. He'll have Jonathan for almost 10 hours that day. I'm sure going to miss them both.

But, I still have 4 full days, including today, to enjoy my time at home, and I intend to do just that. My goal was to scrapbook Jonathan's album before going back, so I should start that. Next week I don't work at all during the day, so I'll get my house ready for guests. Kevin gets married that Saturday, so I'll have 9 people here! wow!! I'm excited though!

This week I'm also trying to get Jonathan to fall asleep without his pacifier so he can learn to put himself to sleep. It's been interesting. Yesterday was my first day. He only cried for 8-12 min all three naps, which really surprised me. I was expecting him to cry up to 30 minutes. what did shock me was that he only slept for 3o minutes for all 3 naps. I think he's waking up thinking he wants the pacifier. Hopefully by the end of the week he's sleeping longer and learns he's not getting it. I just have to be strong and follow through. I did give it to him last night at the game, but we were in public. I'll probably end up confusing him. On a brighter note, he slept 5 1/2 hours last night, then was up 25 min to eat and then slept for another 3 1/2. I feel somewhat refreshed this morning.

by the way, I think I remembered my locker combination... it only took me writing this blog to help. we'll see if it's right on saturday. And I'm gong to write it down right now so I don't forget it again!